Teigen spoke about how she has been ‘depressed’ following her public bullying allegations earlier this year.
Chrissy Teigen Opens Up About Being A Member Of ‘Cancel Club’ Following Bullying Controversy
WASHINGTON — American model and TV personality Chrissy Teigen said she is “depressed” following her public bullying allegations earlier this year.
The model also said that she has “learned a whole lot” about cancel culture in the past two months.
The 35-year-old star wrote a lengthy Instagram post on July 14 about the difficulty she’s faced emotionally since multiple allegations of bullying surfaced in the past few months.
“I don’t really know what to say here…just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter s–t in real life (sic),” Teigen said in her Instagram post alongside a photo of her legs propped up on the couch.
“Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right; being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race. But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer.”
The model went on to say she feels “lost” and she wants “to find my place again.”
“I need to snap out of this; I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay. I’m not used to any other way (sic),” she said.
“Cancel club is a fascinating thing, and I have learned a whollllle (sic) lot. Only a few understand it, and it’s impossible to know till you’re in it. And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously, you sound whiney when you’ve done something wrong. It just sucks.”
“There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow.”
Teigen expressed her love for fans and said she missed them.
“I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just…tired of being sick with myself all day,” she said.
“I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s going to get brutally picked apart, but I dunno. I can’t do this silent s—t anymore!”
“If you or someone you know has also been canceled, please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch! Thank u, and goodbye, I love u (sic).”
As per the reports, over the past few months, Teigen was called out for her past social media posts regarding Courtney Stodden, Lindsay Lohan, Farrah Abraham, and accusations from designer Michael Costello who said she bullied him.
The model penned a public apology to Stodden in May.
“Not a lot of people are lucky enough to be held accountable for all their past bulls — in front of the entire world. I’m mortified and sad at who I used to be. I was an insecure, attention-seeking troll,” Teigen said at the time.
“I am ashamed and completely embarrassed at my behavior, but that is nothing compared to how I made Courtney feel.”
“I accept her apology and forgive her,” Stodden said.
But the model says that Teigen has never issued a private apology, despite claims that she did.
Teigen later wrote an essay penned for an online publishing platform in which she apologized following the aftermath of her controversial resurfaced tweets.
“Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven’t felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I’ve said in the past,” she said as she questioned her original motives for her past tweets.
“There is simply no excuse for my past horrible tweets. My targets didn’t deserve them. No one does. Many of them needed empathy, kindness, understanding, and support, not my meanness masquerading as a kind of casual, edgy humor. I was a troll, full stop. And I am so sorry.”
Teigen then came under fire from Costello, who accused her of bullying him and blacklisting him from the industry.
John Legend defended his wife against Costello after the designer claimed he had messages to prove the abuse, which the singer said were “fabricated.”
Teigen later threatened legal action against the designer for the fictional correspondence he posted online.
(With inputs from ANI)
(Edited by Ojaswin Kathuria and Nikita Nikhil)